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34: hey guys, i now reside at my humble abode at "lifeafter18.livejournal.com".
it's easier for u guys to leave ya comments over there cos u dont have
to be a lj user to comment. but remember to sign off cos i wouldnt know
who you are..
 | bye blog | Jun 30, '06 12:48 PM
for everyone |
33: had my last paper today for BT2. so
thankful its over, but im nt as overjoyed as i thought i would be. it's
been such a long time since i last blogged and it's beginning to feel
foreign to me once again. i've never been consistent in
my life, not even when i was a young kid. i used to have a diary, and
the entries were months and months apart. you might ask "what's the
point right?" i wonder too.. now i can hardly remember where i even
place that frivolous piece of work.. oh yeah, i have decided to move.
not in the sense of my home, but rather my blog. even though this blog
is kinda part of me and some of you may have found out more bout me
through this blog, i feel that it is good to have a change of
"environment" once in a while. frankly speaking, i cant really bear to
abandon this site. it was here where my friends and i had updates of
each other despite our ever-busy lives. ever since we all headed to our
respective colleges, we have somehow drifted a little from one another;
not as close as we used to be. the 6 of us werent really in the
bandwagon when the blogging phenomenon arrived. i guess we were all
still in a world of our own, with the foolish thinking that we would
remain the same forever. well, nothing is forever, even love. love
fades with time, and it is us who must make use of the opportunity
before the fading sets in. it was thru this multiply that we could
still have news of each other even though we're "miles" apart. this
explains reluctance to shift. but then again, a change is good isnt
it?? before i end off, here's a few pictures for your viewing pleasure.
   
32: seriously, sometimes i wonder how you
find all the time and energy to annoy me. shouldnt you be busy with
work and stuff? why are you bent on making my life miserable, when it's
already bad enough. you stupid ashlee simson wanna-be, jus leave me
alone for once cant you!!! -bleah- one day
when i can stand you no longer, i promise to BLAST out ur deep dark
secrets and make ur life worse than me, u irritating piece of RICE! for
now, i shall just bear with you on account of someone. if it wasnt for
her, you would have been so dead long ago i tell you. however, i shall
still retain that little bit of respect that i have left for you. argh!!!
PS: to whomever it may concern, im sorry, that person is just so freaking irritating that i jus cant help bitching.
31: guess
what. i just finished watching "flame of the forest". yup, i watched it
and i really missed those days back in Damai. Most Damaians should know
what im talking about. The "flame of the forest" was a concert by Damai
in 2004 to celebrate her 10 year anniversary in conjunction with the
Handicapped Welfare Association (HWA). Watching it again really brought
back a lot of happy memories. Yes, my solo was indeed a lifetime
experience, but it was more than just that. Everyone, from the band to
the drama to gu zheng to choir etc worked really hard for the concert
and it felt really good to know that all of our efforts were paid
off at the end of the day. The concert wasnt world class standard, nor
was it anywhere near it, but like what i always believe in, it's the
process and not the outcome that matters most.
Speaking of which, it kinda reminded me of my band days back then. I
remember trying to come up with legitimate reasons to escape
band, and me and mouy kim would always use council duties as an
excuse. That time, jia hong was always so mad with us.. haha. Even when
kas was chairman, i tried to skip. "sry kas" lol. haha. but i was
better okay, i gave u more face than jia hong.. haha but now, i miss
band so so so so so so so so much. i really want to experience playing
with the band again.. i want to stand up during YMCA, i want to
Bengawan Solo during Asian Selection and most of all, i want to Titanic
with My Heart Will Go On. Surprisingly, i dont miss Mr Wong at all..
oops.. haha
Taking this opportunity, i would like to thank all my seniors for the
ever-so-slack section in Damai Windz. Many thanks to kai siang, hafidz,
szeyan, gwen, jesslyn.
30: i lost my ear stud again! ARGH....
 29: just got back from work. to those who
are unaware, im kinda working for 3 days at the singapore fashion
festival. the event is so cool. venue is at the tentage at Ngee Ann
City. frm the outside, it looks simple. but the inside is really diff.
you get the runway, the lights and all the glamour. your typical
America's Next Top Model.. *lights, camera, ACTION!* haha..
the guests for the event are all kinda with invitations. so i thought
it would be highly unlikely that i would get invited, so the only way
of being there is by working.. saw some celebs there, Dennis Keller and
Timothy Go etc.. the people who attended the event were so funky. their
dressing were so cool, all their own style which they could really pull
it off.. the whole thing is just so glam, with the media and the
sponsors being there.. ahh, so fun. imagine my job to be like this in
the future, diff events with diff scenarios everyday. how fun would it
be compared to teaching or even working in the lab. im sorry if i
offended anyone by makin that statement. haha
PS: Happy 18th Birthday Wee Lin. im really sry i am unable to celebrate
with you on the actual day. promise i'll make it up to you girl.
| post BTs | Mar 24, '06 12:24 PM
for everyone |
28: went
to cmpb for my medical checkup. took like 3.5 hrs, i almost died. and
that funny test we had to do, it was like maths, physics, blah blah
blah. to think i thought i could break free frm work for a few days
after block tests.. argh
anyway, had this weird conversation with one of the doctors. here it goes..
doc: so you're frm Saint Andrews?
me: ya
doc: SA good sch, but naughty
me: *smiles*
doc: the guys get all the girls
me: oh?
doc: yeah, the girls' belts always end up in their pants.
doc: *laughs to himself*
me: ah-huh
i thought to myself, wad was that for?? i mean, which doctor says such
stuff?? i guess he got so sick of drawing blood that he needed to say
such things to amuse himself.. poor doc.. haha
27: yesterday nic called and the first thing she asked was " you have a girlfriend ah?"
i paused momentarily, due to the shock of her out of the blue question. and my response was "what did u hear?"
it turned out that she didnt hear anything (as of yet), but rather she
was reading the entry before this and thought that i was attached or
smth...
its quite amusing how people always like to assume that i have a
girlfriend.like in the case of shi xian and fiona. back then, shi xian
would always tell fiona that i have a gf, and the next thing i know,
fiona comes around asking me. cos apparently, shi xian saw me with some
girl which i cant recall at all. and the best part is that, this nt
only happened once. twice in fact. im quite flattered actually cos they
think that so many girls are actually willing to go out with me.. haha..
anyway, its back to monday again tmrw. and did i ever say how much i
really dread mondays?? yes i do!!! for me, i get permanent
monday blues all year round. ( except when the monday happens to be a
public holiday) haha..
alrite.. enough blabbering, its time for me to leave.. ciao~
26: incessant lessons boring me,
stifling environment strangling me,
dying to get out; run away.
bearing my constant bitchy rantings,
overlooking the cynical me,
comforting the deprived soul,
you did all.
hardly a moment of silence between us,
continuous chatter resounding.
our talks and experiences,
unique only to us; can never be replaced.
the mutual understanding,
yearning for more each time.
when the time is up,
we would taste the fruits of our labour.
PS: this post is dedicated to a special
someone. this special person has never heard the sound of a cricket
before, she can be quite self amusing at times, laughing at her own
jokes. if it werent for her, my life wouldnt have been so fun and
interesting. taking this oppurtunity to thank her for being in my life.
love ya always.
| You | Jan 19, '06 11:14 AM
for everyone |
25: Sitting alone, filled with random-ness,
caught in the middle of time.
distance keeping us apart,
the uncomfortable silence,
was never an issue.
Nothing i know of you,
but am fine with that.
i only ask of you to be you,
the you whom i adore.
thousands may wonder,
i choose not to.
till then we meet again,
god stays with me.
strong i shall be,
reliance no more.
nothing shall i fear,
for you are near.
24: its been such a long time since i last came to this site, starting to feel a little foreign to me already. so much for callin it my blog.. haha
anyway, new term of the school started and we're all back to our
"routined" life. besides the new addition of the j1s, SA's pretty much
the same although we've shifted into the oppostion constituency.. the
first 2 weeks of school was kinda fun cos of the intense ogling of
beautiful people by nessa and i. and mind u, we really OGLE. till such
an extent that the people feel uncomfortable. haha. but thats the fun
part, isnt it? lol The j1s are generally nice people, except for some
who thinks that they are the most good looking person in the world and
that everyone is lookin at them. i was like "get a life!"
over confidence can sometimes be a major turn off!!! nessa, im sure u should know who im talkin about.. *grins*
on a different note, im beginning to relish my GP lessons once again. i
never thought i would be able to do so after i left Ms Norzian's class
in TP. but then this yr i got Ms Ngiam and she's really good.. can be
quite annoying at times, but she's really really a good teacher. i so
look forward to GP lessons nowadays.. cos besides GP, i get to admire
her beautiful shoes as well. ( she has plenty of shoes) :)
okay, i guess thats all i got to say for now. going to have my afternoon nap, so see ya guys soon..
 
SCORPIO MAN
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and
always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so
negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He
absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused
feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen
and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves
before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly
achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put
all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a
big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates
thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long,
for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too
much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and
will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will
not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere
man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to
ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able
to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he
will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares
for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say
such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be
both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are
in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be
vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could
not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends.
He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a
complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really
know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or
when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already
forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and
admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in
love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple
woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able
to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman
who sits around waiting for his call.
how true this is about me, i'll let u guys be the judge.. the bold ones are the ones which i think to be more of me. some of them are just so OFF.. haha
23: i am so so so so so bored at home...
its not that i dont have anything to do, its just that i don feel like
doing anything. (yes, once again) i have tons of holiday assignment to
do, but i havent even touched them at all, and im so not looking
forward to starting of school. i rather let the boredom kill me than
let the immense workload suffocate me to death. the only thing that can
relieve me of my misery is retail therapy. u know wad, i seriously
swear by retail therapy, it works wonders for me. but at this point in
time, i should really watch on my spending. cos i have been spending as
if my dad owns a gold mine, besides, christmas is around the corner and
it means more spending. so by depriving marcus of his favourite
activity, it results in a very moody and grumpy marcus, and its not
good!!! argh.... wee lin and mei are shopping to their hearts content
while im sulking in front of my computer.. i need to find a sugar
daddy/mummy to support my expenses, so interested parties pls contact me soon, before i die of a deprived childhood.. lol.. haha.. gosh, im turning cranky.
22: (synopsis) 1917-
a baby is abandoned on the steps of Singapore's famous Raffles Hotel. A
childless English couple find the crying infant and adopt her. They
sail back to England with the child in their arms.
1937- Twenty years have passed. The house of Lim Chin Boon is in
turmoil; the Master of the house is dying and has just received a
letter from a young lady who could very well be the long lost
granddaughter from his first marriage. Emma West returns to Singapore
to look for her family, only to find herself thrown into the midst of
intrigue and mystery. There is a death in the family- a murder as it
turns out. whose death? And who is the culprit? Everyone in the
household has a deadly motive. Sit back and be drawn into a web of
conspiracy, deceit and love that stretches back in time and across
continents. -adapted from the programme-
And
yet another awesome production by the Singapore Repertory Theatre
(SRT). One of the most enjoyable musicals i have seen so far, highly
recommended to all. The music by Dick Lee fitted so well into the
various scenes, captivating all the audiences' attention. I must
mention to you all one great woman, Sheila Francisco. She is simply
stunning, her crystal clear voice with a tinge of peranakan accent from
a filipino was indeed impressive. resounding yet not over powering.
Very good diaphragm power she must have.. haha.. Another Character
worth applauding is the attorney Richard played by Micheal K. Lee. A
charming baritone with a voice to die for, Michael exudes charisma with
his presence on stage. Emma Yong as usual was up to her standars, one
of my most favourite thespian of all. An angelic voice a gift from
above, with her funny antics, she never fails to cause a stir amongst
the audience. A natural-born comedian.. One area which i found to be
quite disappointing was Laura Michelle Kelly. I felt that she wasnt
quite given the chance to excel, maybe it was because of the role or
the script. Apparently, she is being invited by the Queen to perform
for the VE Day Celebrations, and I was kinda looking forward to a
slightly more outstanding performance, which unfortunately wasnt
present. However, the musical was very much enjoyable on the whole and
was definately worth the pennies.. haha
Oh yeah, before i forget. Let me share with you guys a good news.
The SRT will be re-staging " Forbidden City: Portrait Of An
Empress" once again in September 2006. Yes! And i cant wait to
watch it again, i watched the one in 2003 and it was really splendid...
I have smth to look forward to after my "Memoirs Of A Geisha"
haha.. this is so exciting...
  
21: its
the first week of the holidays and i already feel so tired, been
going out for the whole week and spending so much money.
. i think i should just stay at home and clean up my
room and stuff.. i shall stay home today , besides going to
church, cos going to sentosa with the class tmrw and i really need my
rest and to catch up with all my readings which i have neglected
for the past few months.. this entry is going to be so boring cos
i have no idea what to say, am only doing this cos ppl have been
complaining that my blog is so not up to date.. lol.. okay
lets see.. had quite a nice time on friday
though. i went to suntec to watch sky high (it's nt good)
and bumped into jac and gracia who so happened to be there as
well. we didnt chat long cos my show was about to start.
after the show, went to meet jonas and rach at cityhall and dinnered at
carl's junior. then rach and i played a game for the first
time and thot that it was kinda fun, while jonas was on the
drums.. (im nt going to say wad game we played. .
haha lol) then we played pool for an hr, before catching the
midnight preview of just like heaven ( the show was alright,
wasnt fantastic) we the walked around the whole
of the city area and took a nap in fullerton.. haha.. and
i got home at 7am the next morning, dead tired.. went out again
at 7pm in the nite to watch a spanish dance recital which was kinda
good, smth new i guess.. got home at 2am , slept till 2pm, and here i
am typing this entry... and now u should know why im so tired..
lol.
| Nothing | Oct 18, '05 11:52 AM
for everyone |
Twentieth Entry:
as mentioned, ended promos. the only thing worth
celebrating is that i get to be promoted.. other than that, nothing
much to be happy about. a lot of things have been going through my mind
for the past 2 weeks, mainly unhappy thots. on the surface, everyone
may seem to be happy and stuff, but deep down inside, its never the
case. i guess this only happens to complicated ppl who lead complicated
lives. sometimes, i wish that i was a little more to the norm, more
like a typical 17 yr old..
i hope i did clear the air for nessa, and helped siok went thru some
issues. well, thats the least i could do to save myself from my
oh-so-screwed-up life.. whatever.. on a happy note, we celebrated kas'
birthday at cartel with her birkies and rip curl.. well, it was good to
meet up with the rest again, at least like before. im so like stuck
with the past, would jump towards any oppurtunity to relive them..
lol.. haha. who knows, i might get stuck in the past and not come back.
:)
was goin thru my wardrobe the other time and managed to find quite a
lot of old stuff. some really old stuff from my primary sch were still
lying around.. ( oh, the nostalgic feeling again.. haha) anyways,
yeah.. took 3 fotos and made a comparison on the transition in my life
and thot to share it with u guys.. lol
yeap.. thats all for now..
  
Nineteenth Entry:
Try
studying and taking your promotional exams in PAIN, trust me, its NOT
fun.. at all.. Had these stomach cramps for the past few days, almost
close to a week.. initially, i thot it wasnt anything serious, maybe
indigestion and stuff. so i took some chinese medicine and applied some
medicated oil. it went on for a few days, and seriously, i was
like kinda the "ambassador" for the chinese medicine, it was the only
thing that kept me alive. However, it ceased to work after some time,
so i beared with the pain.
Until one fateful night, the night before my major papers, BIO and
CHEM. due to the pain, i went to bed at 10am (mind you, thats very
early for marcus, considering how a nocturnal animal he is). and at
2am, i realised i was still awake, cringing in pain.. couldnt lie,
couldnt sit, couldnt stand, couldnt squat.. i tell you, the feelin was
ATROCIOUS. i had to wake my parents up at 3am to take me to the doctor
for a jab. (felt kinda bad to them actually, but i really couldnt take
it anymore) after the jab, i felt slightly better and with the pain in my abdomen i went to take my 2 papers later in the day. the drama is not over yet.
After Bio and Chem, the pain came back and it was so intense tat i went
to the doc for a second jab, a more potent one. (according to the doc)
i went home and slept for a while, thankfully for that 2 hrs of slp
after so many sleepless nights. and guess what, i had a Maths paper the
next day, i studied for like 1/2 hour and i gave up. Pain was driving
me up the wall. and yes, thats how i completed my promotional
examinations, IN PAIN.
now as im typing this entry, i can still feel the cringing pain... argh
PS: i would marry the person who can relieve me of this misery this instant.
Eighteenth Entry:
If
you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle
with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didnt choose
to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her,
feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse
the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.
How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts
feel the same pain and joy, even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you,
and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or assess
blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will
know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can
really do is to accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your
life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give
it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to
others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in
anyway way you can. That is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so
long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their
hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to
look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love
cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be
someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.
They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it
can be made to grow only by giving it away. Remember this, and keep it
to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own
reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or
reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and
give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your
heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and
there is nothing you should do.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.
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